i need to find love again, 

i need to lay and talk about things with her and her to me. 

i need to not think spiteful things while i make these personal wishes 

I need to find love again, 

I need to talk about things with her and her with me 

i need to invite her over for dinner 

to laugh with mother 

to bring joy to each other 

I need to love again, I need to not repsond to terry with my mind 

I need to not say things just because they feel spiteful and good 

I need to get married. 

I need to inspire people. 

I need to kill commercialism 

We need to take better care of ourselves. and not let the presence of love and satisfaction fill our minds. 

In the past, they fought for 5 days. We can fight for 4. 

We can run "Would you like it done to you?" posters 

We can make the world better. 

We must not let love sedate our minds and hearts. All i need is love, All i need is home, All I need is food. 

When the processes consist of labor and systems. The job, the transport, the tragedy, let us not love be a scapegoat for tragedy. 

I need not jab at terry, saying things i dont mean, creating these mental images, and stories in defiance over being locked down. fighting for the thing i do not want just because terry doesnt want me to have it.

"dont eat that cookie", i shall eat the cookie. 

i must not let terry watching me guide my thoughts,  i must not rebel in this way.